Yeah, it's been a while since I've written a blog here on xanga, but I'm back.

Don't know why the parentals fight more over the Christmas break.  It's not like buying stuff is stressing them out, because we don't even buy anything.  If there's one thing that i might miss about college after it's all over, it'll be having a place to get away from it all.  In either case, I'm old enough to endure it.  It's just awkward, and furthermore, it just makes me wonder about my future.  I don't want to be like them.  I don't want to argue like that and make my kid(s) feel awkward about being at home.  It was sort of like that last year, and it's starting to feel just the same.  Perhaps I should start going to work more.  Less time at home, more outside the house.  It's also the reason why I love headphones.  If anything, it's my isolation from the world because all I hear is the music that flow from the wires and into my ears.

Voices and Beats

I listen to the beats
I listen to the voices
But these voices and beats
they do not come from around me
no
Beats and voices from wires
As they flow from this thinness
the voices soothe me from the voices
And the beats masks the nervous beating of my heart
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Honestly, there's a few things that I wish for this Christmas, one would to have  it be peaceful at home.  Another  thing is what I've wished for ever since I was in preschool and 4 years old.  I wish for the essentially the same thing every Christmas and every birthday. 

Whoever said wisdom, patience, and maturity comes with age probably hasn't visited this house before. 

And so with everything that's happened, and for what I still hope, I realize that a lot of what I do is inspired
-drawing/sketching
-photoshopping wallpapers (I used to do this, maybe I'll go back to it one day)
-composing songs and singing
-writing lyrics and poetry
-photography
-playing online games
-working on my car (it's a way to get out of the house, and since I could get my driver's license, it's been my symbol of freedom.  With it, I could go far, far away and escape it all.)

Probably the decision that I'm most proud of this year is switching my major from Biochemical Engineering to Hydrology.  Looking back on previous blogs, I really believe that it was the right thing to do.  I wasn't really that interesting in that topic, and I wasn't doing very well in that topic either.  If I had stayed, I probably would've failed out of UC Davis.  In any case, I'm really enjoying what I'm doing now.  Guess when you're young, certain things you do or have interest in tends to carry with you all your life.  In some form or anotherm everything on that list and my major all had some form that it sprouted from when I was younger.  I don't think any of it just "appeared". 

With that, I think this will be my year in closing blog.  Maybe there'll be another. 

And with that, I leave a quote of the day, just like I used to.

Quote of the Day: What is love?